Subject: Dear Louise, Dean, Trudy and Shiloh, C_________, and all concerned

From: Michael Travesser
Date: September 19, 2006 11:05:40 AM MDT



9/19/06


Dear Louise, Dean, Trudy and Shiloh, C_______, and all concerned,

Last evening, Louise, you moved away from the land. Truly, I am happy for
you that you have finally chosen your heart's desire and can rest from your
conflicts. You went with your natural husband. This is right, for every soul
should follow his heart in what he wants after he has had the truth and the
light presented to him. Intercession is right in its time, but is wrong once
the truth comes and is rejected by the true intents of the soul.

You told me that when you decided to follow your heart that you got the
vision. The vision you reported seeing was the earth view of it. Shiloh and
Trudy also had a very accurate earth view. You did not report to me the actual
vision, which was that all men be one with me and have my Seed, which is the
same life of God that I have. Our land was to have a spiritual intimacy which
is as close in the spirit as a heavenly marriage. When you decided to follow
the natural earth, it was truly significant that the natural earth view would
come to you. It truly was the vision from the human perspective.

I have felt over the years that you were bound up in yourself. You took
strong cords and wrapped them around yourself thinking that I was the one
binding you up with the cords. Dean, also, did the same. Sometimes when I
passed Dean in a work project he was in, I felt so burdened for him, for he was
in a prison of his own making. I had not imprisoned him, but he had imprisoned
himself, right here in the land. He wanted to travel but could not, because he
was in a prison that he imagined I had made for him. He was not free. His
flesh broadcasted his confinement in a thousand ways. Both of you were
broadcasting. Neither one of you ever could fully take into your experience
the message I came to bring, or were able to apply it to your own selves in a
lasting way. I will explain why.

Louise, in recent days I was very sorrowful over your apparent dishonesty
with me and yourself. You may have not recognized it, but you actually lied.
I didn't feel at the time that you knew that you were lying, but I knew that
you were deceived if even it were only a self deception. When I knew you were
drawn to go back with Dean, I asked, "What hinders you?" I knew that was what
was in your heart. I could read it as clear as crystal. You strongly insisted
that you were divorcing Dean and would not see him anymore. I thought to
myself, "Poor lady, she does not know her own heart." I said, "Why didn't you
go?" You said, "Because I didn't want to." I gave you the benefit of the
doubt, concurring with you, but you did not know yourself. I knew you far
better than you did. But when I say "Dean" I do not necessarily refer to his
person, but more to his spirit and earthly context. Dean had not found the
freedom that is of God, and he desired the freedom that is of man. This was
true for you as well.

I never felt that you should not be with Dean as a husband. I trusted your
judgment on that. Several times I told Dean it was okay to be with you. He
told me that he saw that he was a stumblingblock to you so he should not be
with you. I never have told anyone to divorce their husbands or to separate
from them, as C__________ had believed. Never once did I require it of anyone.
I asked people to separate from their dysfunction and from those they hated.
Dean told me personally that he saw that he drew you away from God by his
relationship with you. You Louise told me that when Dean was leaving, that he
came to you and tried to influence you to leave with him. You said you
recognized it in his eyes. This is right after Dean told me that he had not
told you he was leaving so that he would not influence you. He deceived
himself, but he did not deceive me. Your actual difficulties stem from what
Father told you personally, and yet you chose another course of action after
thinking it over. After all, one does not want to be a fanatic in following
God does he. This one thing is the important matter.

The real issues have nothing to do with leaving the land, or even traveling
somewhere. The real issue is what you invented about me. When Purity came back
from town with you, she shared that she was in a fog about everything that was
happening. When Trudy had come over to visit Sabbath, she heard Trudy saying
true things, but later stated that she had been nervous while she was here.
She did not perceive, however, where Trudy's thoughts were taking you. When
Purity was on the trip with you, she heard you and Dean talk about how people
in the land were bound up. She saw that I was being blamed for binding you up.
I was deceiving the people making them want to leave the land. Immediately her
fog cleared and she said to herself, "I have been here before, at the time of
the church split." She saw that your euphoric "freedom" was a deception, and
she determined not to go with you.

When Eve went to the tree and ate the fruit, she suddenly felt free. When
she was in her temptations she was feeling bound by the word of God, but when
she ate, she was free from the word of God, and experienced a euphoria. It
would not last. The thick clouds of reality would soon come to her, and the
real world would appear, except now, instead of being clothed in light, she
would be clothed in animal skins, following only the desire of those skins.

I want to share with you that God's freedom is not fearful. God is not
afraid of me. When Trudy was here visiting with Purity and saying that she
wanted her mother to live with her and be free, she was nervous while doing so,
according to her own statement. It is possible for a soul to believe in freedom
as a theory, but not truly have it. Just consider, will your new "freedom"
suddenly thrust you into the world of absolute trust in God. Will your prayer
life improve? Will your walk with God suddenly be intensely personal? Will
your new freedom make you free from sin? Will you now always tell the truth,
and be content with all that Father gives you? Will you be open and naked
instead of secretive and hidden? Will Father's miracles attend you daily
because now you are free of the chains you have been chained with? If so, I
rejoice with you. I would gladly see you in that place instead of here where
you could not attain that. If not, then what has your freedom given you? What
do you have now?

I spoke with C__________ some time back and asked him face to face if he
wanted God. He told me no. He was very aware of the spirit he chose. I told
him that there was only one spirit remaining and that he would have a demonic
husband. He indicated that he didn't care, but he wanted what he wanted.
Truly, C___________ is free and freed from the cords of faith and of Father, but
has that made him happy? C__________, has your god made you content? Trudy,
have your children found the peace of God? Really? Or is your family
dysfunctional? Do your children know their Savior, or is your family just
following the flesh, the common earthly desires, the animal skins of the human
nature? Does Ira always have a sweet spirit or does she express contempt from
time to time. Does she ever talk down other people? Is her heart always pure
and sweet, trusting in the Father for everything?

Shiloh, how is it with you? Is your heart soft and yielding to the things
of the Spirit, or have you steadily become more hard. Have you more and more
felt "bound up" by me too. Do you ever feel resentment in your regard for the
land, the people here, or myself? Do you feel these things in your family?
Old friend, none of these things go to heaven. The freedom that is the freedom
to be rude, impatient, even hostile, is the freedom that only exists in the dark
world. I have not taught those things here. This is not the intimate life I
have shared all of these years. I have only and ever taught the complete
abandonment of the soul to God. There is no tension in it, or hatred, or
recriminations. There is only sweet love and joy continually. I say this so
that no one may be self deceived in what goes to heaven and what does not go
there.

Last week, I was very greatly moved to pray that Father cleanse the land of
all offending spirits. I prayed that unhappy hearts would separate themselves.
The very next day Dean came and wanted to leave. I saw this as an answer to my
prayer. I wanted him to finally get what he wanted. He was given a vision of
an extreme earth view and it drove him right out of the land. He did not look
like a free man to me. Louise, you followed shortly after. I saw this as all
in God's plan. He wanted to give you both your heart's desires. There may be
others here who have been bound up in themselves as you have been, but I cannot
say. All I know is that the shaking has commenced, and if someone can be
shaken, he will be shaken.

The holy bonds of Father were seen as a torment for you, but do you think
the unholy bonds of my adversary will be less severe? Do you believe having
Father's burdens lifted, the adversary's burdens will be lighter? You will
find that the adversary has burdens that are far more binding and they leave
great bruises. The weight of sin is far more grievous than the weight of
righteousness. But you have been torn, and your flesh wanted relief, and you
were ready to give your flesh relief, and your flesh then shouted "Freedom" but
it will not always be so. It was not for Eve, and it will not be for you
either. Lost faith only leads to the caverns of blackness.

But since you want to be free, and are somehow reveling against me in your
freedom, since you believe that I have bound everyone up here, I will give you
one more freedom. Those in the land sometimes say, "When are you coming back?"
"Are you coming back to the land?" I want to spare you that discomfort, for
that opportunity will not be offered. I want you to be free of ever
considering a return to this place. You may put it from your mind, for you
have already said this yourself. In that way it will not be a discomfort to
you. You are truly free of us. This freedom is not granted because you chose
to live with Trudy. No, there was nothing wrong with that. Your freedom from
me is granted because of what you have made me out to be, the one who binds up
his followers, the one who makes his followers afraid to leave or they will go
to hell, the one who deceives you. You have made me into a devil, and adversary
of God. But there is more to it than that. You cannot return because you
cannot. That is, we have entered a place of intimacy with God that was
impossible for you to enter with us. I am not writing concerning your earth
view of the vision. I am writing concerning the deep intimate aloneness that
is God. We are shut in with Him, and this was excruciating for you to receive.
You see all who are locked in with God as "bound up." We are. We are bound up
to His heart and Mind. We have His Mind. As Dean reported, all this was making
him feel insane. Truly, for the dark forces cannot comprehend this place.

In the dark world and the natural world, the children can only exhibit
their dysfunction. They with the adults, can only complain and scrap with each
other, and they consider this world natural. The howling mob below seems normal
to them. But this is not what we are entering here. We are taking a very
narrow pathway up the side of mount Zion, where we have to even take our socks
off. Even our clothing must be removed, that clothing that has hidden our true
selves from others. The people have pretended to have God and made themselves
to look right so that others would think so, but that is no more.

Purity was very clear that that is what you were presenting her. You made
me into one who torments people so that they will all leave. No, old friend, I
do not do that. I tell the truth, but those who love evil, torment themselves
and they are driven from me because of their own manufactured torments as Dean
was. Those who love me say as two souls said to me today, "Oh, Michael, bind
me even closer to you than before." "I drew them with cords of a man, with
bands of love: and I was to them as they that take off the yoke on their jaws,
and I laid meat unto them." Hosea 11:4. These are my cords, the cords of a
man. These are my bands, the bands of love, with which I draw the soul to the
Father. But you have refused my cords, and had disdain for my bands. Now you
will have the bands of another, even the one who is against me, but these are
the bands you have desired. You joyfully received this other spirit who was
against me.

But have not I always said these things? Have I not always wanted everyone
to have what he has wanted? Did I not recently tell you, standing there with
me, that I wanted everyone to leave whose heart is not here? Yes, that is what
I want. I want only those hearts who have found freedom in the Spirit to be
with me, for they feel no cords of offense at being here. They love being
bound to my heart, as I love being bound to my Father's heart. We are One.

Satan was greatly pressured in heaven. He hated the law that came from the
Son's mouth. He urged his followers to leave heaven and go out with him to
freedom. This is not a new doctrine, but one that has been played out for
generations. The Father's angels stayed. These are the ones who follow the
Son withersoever he goes, and they love doing so. The experience of carnal
freedom has with it a deception. What is actually occurring in the soul that
is "bound up" is that the demons that the soul has befriended are agitated and
full of resistance to righteousness. The closer the Father comes, the greater
their need to depart and get away from His righteousness. When the soul yields
to them and departs the righteous judge, the demons then become quiet, causing
the soul to believe he is at peace, and free at last from the torments of
righteousness. This soul is free from righteousness, instead of becoming free
to follow after it.

Trudy, when you were here, you shared with the people how free you are.
You can now eat anything you want to eat. Michael makes things hard for
people, binding them up. This is what you have thought. Why is it that your
freedom makes it possible now for you to stick just anything you want into your
body? I know there are "Christians" who smoke and drink for this reason.
Spoiled milk, full of animal shots, hormones, and some unmentionables does not
make one free, but a slave of appetite. I am free to do what my Father tells
me to do. When he says, "Son, don't eat this thing from now on," I am happily
free to obey Him, but this is not so for those who are slaves of their
appetites, craving the very things that can truly injure them. Disease does
not just happen, it is created. I do not just speak of germs, but the dis-ease
of the spirit. The shocking reality, is that our children perfectly reflect us.
Can you imagine an eternity living with your children. Can you imagine an
eternity living with their dis-ease. The children are who their parents make
them. The children are their parents. Are you prepared for living with
millions of yourself forever? Would you actually be happy in an eternal life
of your present circumstances. Old friend, life does not get better than this.
Your life IS what you now have. Heaven will not change anyone's character.
Hell is now too. Hell is when you are impatient or dissatisfied. Hell is
unkept, messes all around. Hell is dissatisfaction and needing to get away
from one's present moment. Hell is running away. What you have now, is what
you would have through eternity. Is that truly what you want?

Purity called Milton and shared with him that you had separated from the
land. Milton commented, "They did just what I did. It's not a pretty
picture." Milton discovered that after all of the free euphoria, there is a
coming down to reality. The flower fades and the results are sorrowful.

I feel that in your recent actions that you have not been fully forthcoming
with me. Purity saw it all, but I was shown none of it by you. When in your
presence last evening you were all smiley and happy. You did not communicate
your true hearts with me even though I knew what your hearts were. My letter
here is intended to communicate honestly with you, and to reveal my heart to
you completely. I am keeping nothing from you. Why? Because I am free, and I
do not fear revealing my true heart to anyone. I am not a slave to the opinions
or thoughts of others. The Father is mine, and He is my Freedom, for I am free
to follow Him, wherever He goes. So are all those who are with me.

I will not think of you with hatred, or grief. I will think of you from
the spirit of relief, for I have felt your conflicts for years. I have borne
you for years. I was satisfied to do so. But when I saw you tonight, smiling
happily at me and happily going your way, I was relieved for you, and for
myself. I will not be under the weight anymore, for I felt you day after day
and year after year, and my heart continually cried out for your circumstances.
But now you are free, and so am I. I truly desire that you keep what you
believe you have found. I truly desire that you come to know God as I do and
that you receive of my vision. Not the earth view vision, but the vision that
declares that man is one with God.

Michael

In the email address line... Prudence Welch's email is not there... But he addressed Me in this email.
To: shilohmahana; elsahonesty; hispeace4ever
Subject:
From: michael@signalmesa.com
Date: Mon, 15 Jan 2007 17:28:04 -0700

1/15/07
To all my old friends,
I am writing this letter to your family, the J. Sayer family, Clines, Welches, and whoever it may apply to, in an effort to clear the air, and make everything plain. I have felt the need of this for a long time, but only recently have seen that it was now imperative for the sake of truth and honesty between us. I feel responsible for you and what Father shows me in regard to your situation and circumstances. When I meet people, I often feel a spirit that is not always truthful, but I am not given to say anything about it. Now it is given me.
We live in a world that is not truthful, but our safety is to always stay truthful in every instance. The world has ways of adjusting things so that the appearance is other than what is actual. The natural man quite easily resorts to subtle lying, in order to protect himself from those who might judge him in not so flattering a way. The Scriptures tell us just who goes into the lake of fire. They say, "But the fearful (timid), and unbelieving (unfaithful, not to be trusted), and the abominable (whose behavior is detestable), and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death." Rev. 21:8.
The things that stick out most in the verse, since some of the things mentioned are easily seen, is that the spiritually timid and untrustworthy are the two first things into the lake of fire. The verse ends with "all liars." That includes those who distort the truth or who tell little white lies to cover their stories. Everyone expects a sorcerer to go to hell, and a murderer, but does one expect the timid and the maker of little white lies to go, especially if it is done only occasionally? One who covers his true nature is a liar also. His words may always be true, but his secret deceptions expose him. A secret deception is one in which the soul will do something, that he would not do if his subject were watching him.
So, this brings up the issue at hand. Ashley called me yesterday on the phone and told me that Dean was coming out to pick up her bicycle. I told her that we would have it ready for him. She had asked Eleana earlier, why I had not called her back, since I had agreed with her that I would call, so I told Ashley at this time that I had not called her back because the phone number had been changed right after I spoke with her, and I could not keep my agreement with her since no number for her had been given me. I asked her if the family there was being secret now, and hiding. She said that you changed the phone number to keep me from influencing her, so that she could do what was on her heart. I thought that this statement was incredible, surprising, and revealing. Eleana was able to get in touch with Ashley to give her my message. My message was, that Ashley should stay where she is, because that was where her heart was. I have always told people to do that. I have always told people that I wanted them to do what they wanted. I have never had a different policy or belief.
Yet, your family decided that I would do differently and try to "influence" Ashley, (she uses that name now), to do what was not what she wanted to do. So, you changed your phone number, and kept it secret, so that I would not force her. This is something you know very well, I have never done with anyone, not in my entire life. My earthly dad did not force me, and I have never had it in me to force anyone else. I do tell the truth, but I force no one to do the truth. They can lie, cheat, and steal to their heart's content, but I will always speak against those things. Is that wrong?
What this revealed was that you did not trust me, but counted me untrustworthy. By this, you acted in an untrustworthy way toward me. I could not trust you to tell me honestly how you felt. To my face all was smiles and happy friendliness, clean house, and Christian music playing in the background. But actually, you were not free with me and what you projected is seldom the state of your "house." Through "fear" and "unbelief" in my testimony to you, you revealed that your heart was far from mine. Why could you not just call me up and say, "I don't want you to call here?" Why could you not say, "We believe you will try to influence Ashley and we don't want her to talk to you?" Why could you not just be honest, forthright and truthful with me, instead of this "sneaking around?" Why are you afraid of speaking honestly with me? Is it because you are "afraid" of what I will think of you for doing so? Ashley had stated to Eleana that she was afraid of me. And she said that while with you she just "does her own thing." Was not Ashley doing "her own thing" here? Why not? I never wanted her to do "MY" thing. And, Ashley, why are you afraid of me? I have never hurt you. Never! Your fear is only the product of your own mind, for I have never hurt you one single time. Instead, I have saved you over and over again, from being hurt by dark forces. But as it turned out, you feel more comfortable with dark forces than with light. Is that the meaning of the vision you had in our barn? In that vision it was the dead who were all around you.
So now your little family does not want me to "influence" Ashley, but your family does not mind influencing her, themselves. I told her about my influence. I told her that my influence would have her remain there where her heart was. I told her that the family there did not believe that God was here and with me. She said that she believed but others did not. I asked her if she got her comfort from unbelievers then. She said yes, that she was more comfortable with unbelievers than with believers. She did not use these words exactly, but she stated clearly these sentiments. I then told her that this kind of life would not go to heaven. When we are comfortable with the fearful and unbelieving, and very uncomfortable with the truthful and faithful, we shout loudly where our heart actually is. We do not have a heavenly heart when we are friends with the world.
Your family does not believe my testimony. You think I am the devil because if I were God you would not have to turn your phone off, right? But one must protect the children from the devil's influence, right? Tema said that she had a dream, and that in the dream Shiloh and Trudy came to the ranch but had dropped Ashley off before they got here so that she would not be "influenced" by me. I will tell you plainly, that the only "influence" I have had upon Ashley was to keep her from hurting herself. But you have seen me as a danger. Why did you not just come out and say that? Then we could have been very clear and understand plainly where each of us stood.
Eleana said that her mother had told her something and made her promise not to tell me. Eleana asked me if she should keep it secret. I said that she should keep her agreements with her mother, and I told her not to tell me. Then, someone finds out on the Internet that Prudence had a baby. That turned out to be the secret Eleana was not supposed to speak of. Why would Prudence having a baby be a secret? Is it because Prudence did evil and no one wanted anyone to know that Prudence is evil? If Prudence did not do evil, then why the secret? Is not a new baby to be celebrated if one chooses to have one? This is why I hate the world. It is not real. It is fakery and pretense. Everyone is playing like they are good, but no one in the world is good. They are liars and deceivers by nature, and they hardly even know it themselves.
Then Kevin calls and says that John told him that "he had suspicions" that I was going to have sex with the "seven." "Something was going on out there?" If John believed that I was going to have sex with the seven, then why did he not come and get his daughter to protect her? She is in his hands to do with what he wills. I would not stop him. So I hear this from Ruth, who hears it from Kevin, but we do not hear it from John. Even though I emailed them, they did not answer me on this. They are quiet about everything to me, but evidently not quiet with others. Should I not know that I am going to have sex with the seven if other people can know? John never even asked me. He never said one single word about it to me. Why? I have never kept anything secret. Everything I do, including what I eat, is public knowledge. I don't sneak around about anything. I even publish everything right out on the Internet. But you do not do this. Your lives are secret and under cover. You hide things, because you are ashamed of them, or afraid of the consequences of thinking as you do. You do not say plainly to all the world what you do, as I do. But I only do what Father gives me, so I can broadcast everything plainly. But you do what is not from God, so it must be kept secret and hidden so the very best face can be put on yourself. You do not tell me the truth about how you feel.
Jim was the closest to truthful. He told me that he was joining the Jehovah Witnesses because he found Christ. He told me all of the problems he had had in our church with people and our "control" over people. Dean and Louise felt the same way about being controlled. I pointed out the controls of the JWs and that they do not even follow the Scriptures. He wrote back saying that as usual most of what I said was true, but he just wanted closure. At least I know from his own mouth that we will no longer walk together, and my heart can now be withdrawn from him, for I am his devil and there is no question that he is now an adversary to me.
This is the letter that I wrote to him, and he washes his hands of the "influence" as you have done. I was told that Louise doesn't read what I write because it confuses her. Is that true? Does the pure truth confuse you Louise? Well, here is my letter to Jim:
Hello Jim,
I truly appreciate hearing from you and how you are doing. Yes, truly, I felt many times how you were completely out of touch with us. It was a solemn mystery to me. How was it that this man and his little wife could be so long with us, and yet have so little real touch with what I was saying and teaching. It was the same for Jesus also. Even his own disciples were often "out to lunch," as they say. You completely missed everything. You had no heart for the truth, and much of your stay with us was in the midst of a quarrel with your wife, a quiet tension, and unhappy home. Your unhappiness sometimes spilled over onto your neighbors. That was the source of your misery, and your personal regrets. Even though this is true, I know of no one here who faults or condemns you. You are what you have chosen, and it has always been so. When you were with us, I thought that you were a very nice man. I still think you are nice.
I am truly surprised that you still think you do not stand in your own righteousness, though. The JWs truly have a wonderful load of standing in their righteousness. As with the Adventists, they get credit for things they do. Their laws include Tuesday witnessing, unless they choose another day, and points for going to church. They have developed a wonderful kind of persecution complex. They are very works oriented in a human way. All worldly religions are like that. Their works are a kind of "Adventist Ingathering." Nothing is without its law. But I think the biggest surprise for me is that you now spell Father's name, Jehovah. Now you have a word that is not even in the Scriptures (except for those false translations that place it there) that you say is Father's name. I am amazed that you would even dare to utter it. The Jews don't even do that. Jesus never spoke it. You seem to place a certain amount of virtue in the fact that you speak a name that does not even exist. Many other groups do that also, except they spell it, Yaweh, or have some other variation. All of them are wrong. I tried very hard to get you to know how to spell God's name in the heart, but you could never learn to spell it. From your testimony here it seems that Father's righteousness was always the law to you. God became a law to you, rather than a faithful friend, a sweet companion, a true guide to the soul, a Husband. He gave us a Spirit, that you were very uncomfortable with.
I have visited Kingdomless Hall a number of times (I speak truthfully), and I have always come away from those folks feeling like I did with the Adventists. Poor dead souls, were all I ever saw there. Instead of looking for a harlot on the Internet who is Russian, you have found one in the religious world, a false woman who you think will love you. Now you will get to sit and hear them read the Watchtower, which is not a tower, neither is it watchful. It is a magazine full of thoughts and ideas, many of them wrong, void of the fire of my Father. It publishes the same old dried up petrified manna that fell in their desert when they split from the Adventists in the years after the disappointment, or later petrified manna that their new leaders imagined for them to believe. They have changed almost all of their beliefs through the years, and now the way you talk, they have adopted some of the language of the Baptists to describe their free dead state.
Russell thought he would take up predicting the end of the world half a dozen times or so, but his world never did end, except that he died in it. I think some JWs are nice, but after many years of experience, I really think the Adventists and Mormons are nicer. But none of these groups know the truth of God personally, as we have learned to know Him here. They don't believe that Christ comes in the flesh, except in a kind of nice influence and good behavior sort of way most of the time unless you accidentally slip up once in a while. The JWs have a small host of laws that they keep. I hope you can keep them perfectly. But if you do, it still will not be enough to cleanse your heart from the evil that has plagued you through your life. You will still be a fake, even with them. You did not draw your family to Father while you were here, and now you are still leading them astray. I must shake my head in wonder.
This is really the issue. We here hardly ever refer to the law. We refer instead to our Father's Voice. God is the law. Does your new religion live as God does? Do you have His life at all times? We listen to Him, and this is something you could never identify with. I first recognized this when you moved from the land. You were still a nice man but you had no heart for us. It seemed that you only had a heart for a lady on the Internet. You told me your only connection with us was that you had a trailer here. This made me so sad, I could hardly believe my ears. We never knew you. As you said, the whole time you were a fake. So sorry. I continually warned of fakery. You deceived us about yourself. You tried to play the game instead of openly repenting of your evil. Did I not tell you in the beginning, "Go to Father and ask Him who I am." "Ask Him if I am of God." You went right out and faked asking Father, in your "counterfeit emotional" religion, knowing you were not of the truth, and yet you dare fault us for your deception. Old friend, you deceived yourself, and you still do. Your little family turned out to be of the five foolish virgins. You just did not have enough oil to get you into the marriage. You just could not see, so now you have gone out to those who sell oil (the JWs) but you will not find the way into the marriage because those sellers are void of true oil. They will empty their crankcase on you, and you will think that black goo is heavenly oil, but it is not. I don't know who you are. Truly, just as now, your "counterfeit emotional experience" will still cause you to believe a lie. I have cried for years, "Come out of her my people" but you would not come out, no matter how hard I tried to get you out. Now you publicly associate yourself with more hypocrisy, imagination, doctrinal confusion and downright falsehoods. Well, at least you seem to feel better, but feel better is not salvation. Feeling free is not salvation. This only comes by the Holy Spirit, the Life influence which is from God.
Yes, you were under the law of sin and death, and you still seem to be, except you have changed laws. Yes, when you followed me, you followed a false Christ, a christ I never taught you to believe in. You used me for your own "counterfeit" religion, and that is why Father had to remove you from the land. You were not of Him, and you did not keep His Sabbath, even when you were with us. You now go to church on Sunday, another made up custom of Christianity, instead of Sabbath. You have a name that has been made up by JWs which is not God's name at all, inside or outside of the Bible. You may knock on doors now, or go to meeting, but it is still all of your righteousness, as it was before. Everyone who is under the law continues on in his sins, but those who are free from the law have ceased from sin. This is the life that Michael (Jesus) gave us. Without it, you only have your vain, made-up, doctrines. You only have your useless list of beliefs. The Life that is of God, is the only salvation there has ever been.
You say that you are saved now. This reminds me of the Baptist church I once belonged to. We were saved. Nice thought, but I wondered, saved from what? What are you saved from, the law? Are you saved from the Spirit of Michael in you? Or, are you saved from sin (saved from ever missing the mark of God's instructions)? I would be delighted if you were saved from all of your sins and that they have power over you no more.
No matter how hard you try Jim, nice people, and being nice will not bring you salvation. Friends won't help either. Only the Voice of God can deliver you. Without that you will only marry some human soul or human organization. You will say that you are saved, but you will only have changed ideas, and your present ideas may not put so much pressure on you. And if Michael has not come into you, your religion is still vain and useless. If sin still has its hold on you, in that you ever feel fretful with your wife and children, impatient, or ever become offended or angry, you are still under the law, just as before. But if you have been delivered from sin, by the grace of God, and now live by the Life as it is in God, and your actions reveal that continually, then you would naturally love me, for we would be in agreement. You would not be under the law any more. Those who do not tell the truth at all times, do not know me or my Father. My Father is the truth. Everything I have done here has been at the direct behest of my Father. Do you dare call Him the devil? This is a sin that can never be forgiven, law or no law.
Yes, I know that you do not believe in me. You never have. If you had believed in me, your spirit would have been soft and yielding. You would have loved your wife. You would have never become impatient or resentful or so emotionally needy. I knew that you did not believe. I was never fooled by your profession, for I only had to look at your family. But I did believe that you were honestly ignorant of the truth. I thought that in time you would come to know it. But now, I know, that it was never in your heart to truly know it, so God has given you over to the deceptions that you truly love.
Is your family now redeemed? Are your hearts now soft and always yielding? Have you been delivered from your sins, by the Voice of God? If so, you have my blessing. And if so, it truly had nothing to do with your new beliefs which are a vain smoke in the religious world. You said that when you were with us, you were powerless over your evil heart. Do you have power over it now? Is your evil heart gone? If so, then that is what I tried to tell you from the beginning. It was my message to you from the beginning. But if your evil heart is not gone, and you look back on us with regret and recriminations, I dare say that your evil heart remains. You have just found a new group of nice people who will befriend you for a time, until your world is destroyed in the flames which are to come.
"Yes a lot of spiritual signs and wonders have taken place there for all of us but for me it was bondage that had a cruel power over me." Jim
Why did you not learn from those Spiritual signs and wonders that were given, Jim? Why did you choose bondage instead of the freedom that was given us? Why did you lock yourself into your prison house and your little family with you? You have a great testimony now. You speak very nicely, something like Lucifer did while talking to Eve. Father spoke to Eve, and gave her instructions, but the nice serpent said, "Eat my fruit, and your experience will be so much better." "God has you under His law (His instructions), but I can give you a higher, freer, experience." She joined his church, and the rest is history. I know your life, Jim, and your beautiful sounds fall dead in the sand, for they come from a deception, that even you now believe. You made beautiful sounds when you were with us also. I say it now, as I have said it before, "And every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world." 1 John 4:3 There is no truth in any religion except that God appears in the flesh. If you have not had God appear in your flesh, then you have the spirit of anti-Michael. You believe in Michael in theory, but He has not come in your flesh personally. The answer is always the same. The truth never changes, no matter what church you have found nice people in.
I would not dare to try to pull you out of your present circumstances. I know that you have what you want to have. You had just what you wanted when you were with us. We always get what we want. That never changes. I am satisfied that your family is back together, but I know that you will not actually have each other, without having Michael as your Life. You will just have a group of people that you associate with, but you won't actually have each other. Worldly marriages never really have each other, except in an association kind of way. But that is what you want. You want it, and I am for it. I wish you well, and I wish you a nice time, while the world shall last.
Well Jim, I understand very well how you could take yourself and your family into the darkness that you have. You said, "I wash my hands of the influence." That hurts my heart so much, for the "influence" that we have is the Holy Spirit, and the effect of His fire. You wash your hands of it. That is just too tragic, for without the "influence," you can never again be brought to true repentance. It is impossible, according to the Scriptures. And without the influence, I know you can follow any imagination and believe it is of God. Pilate washed his hands of the influence also, and it led to his end. I am so sorry Jim, but I know you have what you truly want, and that satisfies me for your sake. Truly Jim, "I know you not" and you "know me not." Neither have you ever known me.
Michael
I say these things not to condemn you. I care not for that. I say these things only to make them plain, and expose to the light what has been kept in darkness. You have a perfect right to do whatever you want and I want you all to have what you want. The JW church, which I have studied and visited, is one of the most useless and false religions I have ever seen, but if one wants to join with that, he is perfectly entitled to do so. I know that Jim could not enter into the marriage because his oil ran out. The JWs sell oil, but it will not cause him to enter into the marriage, he will remain estranged from God as before, even if he does express "freedom" "gospel" talk.
These things now bring me to the main point. Because of how your families regard me, I cannot honestly abide with you. For certain, I do not know you and you do not know me. This has been somewhat of a mystery to me since all I cared to do was bless you, but I feel that there are very real reasons for this estrangement.
Through the years, most all of you have been greatly under pressure while being associated with me. I often thought, "Why are they under pressure? I am not pressuring them." Since then, however, I have come to see why some of you are under pressure? It is because you are full of pressure yourselves. If you belonged to the Grange Hall, you would still be under pressure. I think this pressure has contributed largely to the dark spirit that is on your children. Prudence's children also seemed so very dark and unhappy to me. I have groaned in myself and my heart has gone out to the children over and over because they all seemed so sad and even abused. It is like there is a gray cloth over their faces with no brightness in it. This did not seem to be so for Ashley and Eleana. Somehow they seemed free to do what they wanted. But Trudy, your children and Prudence's children seem deeply hurt. There is something very wrong there but I can only guess why.
While visiting with you once, I observed how you communicated with your children, and I had to wince. There I was, standing there watching you treat them like something low and unrespectable, and I may have gotten a little glimpse into their darkness, but I feel that there is much more to it.
So, I will tell you plainly what I think. I feel very much like you have never actually known the Spirit that I have thought to share with you. The pressure that you have felt here, brought on only by yourselves, seems to have contributed to your doctrine of "freedom" that you speak of often. It is a freedom you seek from your own pressure that you bring upon yourself, by yourself. Your tension is self generated but you have attributed it to my "controls." I would ask, "Do you feel that tension when you pass a speed limit sign?" The sign just stands there, and so do I. I just tell the truth but I have never forced anything on you, but you have forced things upon yourselves. When Purity went to town with you (Dean and Louise) the last time, she agreed with you, and then suddenly was awakened to what you were actually doing. She could not go there with you. What I see is that you want "freedom" to follow your flesh and your natural desires. You want to be free to do whatever you want in the flesh. But this "freedom" is far from free. You would not have to turn your phone off and "get some space" if you were actually free. You need "space" because you are still chained to your walls.
I have freedom too, but it is not your kind of freedom. I am free to continually follow my Father's Voice, never turning to the left or to the right. I am free to obey him continually. This is a freedom that you do not possess. You are actually a slave to the dark side, but indeed, you are free from being obedient to God continually. You could not stand the pressure of that, since it was not in your heart to do so. This pressure, Trudy, has contributed to your periodic need to get away. Your trips to Costa Rica and others, were from this need, and this lack of peace within yourself. You hoped to find peace by going away. It never worked, because you were always there when you arrived. You would always find yourself there. When you went to Costa Rica, you finally had to escape yourself there also.
I wanted peace for you and your mother so much, but it seemed to escape you. "Few there be that find it." Your families have not found it. You have not known the very peaceful place of being in Father's perfect will at all times. Instead, perfect obedience to God at all times, seemed to be a very real threat to you. "For the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness and righteousness and truth." Eph 5:9. This kind of freedom and peace simply could not be found by you, even though I spoke of it often. I don't know what hindered you. I truly don't believe that you know your actual state, or that you intentionally have gone off into darkness, but it is what has happened to you. I truly believe that you did not go off into darkness. I actually believe you never came out of it. What I actually teach and experience, you have never understood or known.
So I don't blame you or condemn you. I will not accuse your motives. I don't know them. But I have just seen what you have done, and how you have been secret and private. This very fact tells that you do know what is right, but you choose not to do it. This is what "secret" and "hiding" are all about. I don't feel that you have been completely honest with me about yourselves, but I think you do not necessarily realize your own dishonesty. There are hidden things that you don't want me to know. This has revealed the spirit to me of which you partake. It is not my spirit and not my religion, for my religion has no force or tension of this kind in it. The force I feel is sweet and secure. The tension I feel is more like the tension of swinging over the abyss on a green cord. It does have its thrill at times, but there is always deep green grass waiting on the other side. My Master's yoke is easy and light. My walls are transparent and I stand upon a transparent and quiet sea. The burdens you have felt only reveal that you have followed another master, while thinking you were following mine. You were never able to submit and yield patiently to the Father's discipline, but you controlled yourself, defended yourself, and guarded yourself, instead. This has brought you into many difficulties and unexplained conflicts. No one gets out of this life alive, and if they try, they only perish in their sins.
I want to say that my heart toward you will not be estranged. If I see you along the side of the road needing help, I will always happily give it. I do not condemn you or accuse your motives, for I do not know them. But I must show myself separate from your spirit, since it is untrue, and not mine. I am not with you in the way you have gone. I don't believe as you do, and you do not believe as I do. We cannot walk together in this separation of hearts. It is impossible. You have another gospel that you have named "freedom" but is actually bondage of the worst kind. I gave you gold and silver, but you counted it as an unclean thing. My riches were burdensome to you. I always wish you well, but wellness is not that which comes from separation, and a kind of dishonesty. You would try to impress me with your piety, but in realty your spirit has been left desolate. I cannot help but think that in your heart you know this. There is something so unfulfilling about the natural life. The daily doldrums seem endless. There are always personal tensions and conflicts and unhappiness becomes the root below the surface smiles and pretense. I know this life. It is the one I had before Father came into me and took it all away. Sadly, though, most of humanity loves their dark world. I would not wish it on anyone.
But, old friends, it is not possible to have the life I speak of without absolute, bold, dedicated, and unmerciful truth telling. For one's first deceiver is his own self. If one cannot honestly confront himself, then he cannot honestly confront anyone else, including the devil, and he becomes the devil's lawful prey.
Well little families, you have stayed with your earthly husbands, and taken your earthly names. You have made a choice not to take the narrow road, but to stay on the broad one. This choice you made is not unusual, though. What is unusual is when one takes the road that I have taken. Truly, few ever do this and stay with it. Most earnest "believers" end up in the town of Legality, where they live with a man named Civility. You stopped off at the town of "Freedom" where Vanity and Natural Desire live. I have wondered if you would ever find your way back, or even desire to, onto the narrow road where few men travel.
I want you to know, that I am not against you. I never will be. This is something that is only manufactured in the minds of some. I am not your enemy, nor will I be. You can even give me your phone number, and I still will not hurt you, nor "influence" you, trying to make you do what you do not want to do. I never have had it in my heart to do that. I have always said, "Do what Father tells you," but I have never said, "Do what your flesh tells you." I have trusted you to follow Father's heart, but when you must hide or fear what I will do or say, I know the Father's heart has been left behind, for those who love God, love me.
Michael is a slave of revelation. If He sees any untruthfulness, or anything hidden, he must expose it, for it is written: "Fear them not therefore (those who don't like you because you exposed them): for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known." The sword of Michael hurts no one. It only exposes the man of sin. If a soul is hurt, he has hurt himself.
Sincerely, Wayne

Hello little family, September 19, 2005 12:48:28 PM PDT

I am feeling the need to share some pertinent information to our living here. Our monthly expenses are coming in at about $13,000 per month. This seems reasonable considering the amount of people who live on that money. Still, I feel the need to look at real things considering a talk I had with one soul in the land.

This particular person was wanting to do something that was on her heart, (baking a peach pie) and she asked me a question concerning it. I said, "Why spend the time, money and energy baking a pie when you can just eat the peaches." I hadn't given this much thought before, but it came strongly on me that this was not a minor issue when it comes to the Sons of God. Consider for a moment, one takes good peaches that God made to be eaten, and then that one adulterates those peaches, cutting down on the food value of the peaches, adding all kinds of seasoning to those peaches, to please the lust of appetite. How much extra propane goes into adulterating ones food is anyone's question? How much extra sugar or sweetener goes into the lust of appetite? I then began to consider, how much better it would be to eat food in its best form. That does not necessarily mean all raw, but it does infer no adulterating.

I am considering that everyone who is in the new government, can do well by leaving off cookies, pies and cakes and a host of other adulterating mixtures. It would not only be better for health, but much less expensive to do. Those who adulterate their food may find that they eat too much. A person may say, I cannot eat unless I make pies and cookies, I am not hungry for the other things. If you are not hungry, that immediately infers that you do not need to eat. What your body will do is just store what it does not need as fat. If you eat good food and not food after the order of your lusts, you will tend to eat only what you need, for you will only eat when you are hungry for what is good for you.

This is the rule of the new government.

Michael